Dear Younger Me,

Dear Younger Me,

I’ve been toying with this post in my head for a while now. Today, July 17th 2017, marks 11 years since we were told that my wonderful mom was not going to make it. Eleven years ago tomorrow, we said goodbye to my mom. July of 2006, I must say, was the worst month of my life so far.

So a few months ago, I heard this song on the radio called “Dear Younger Me” by MercyMe. In the song, the singer is writing a letter to his younger self. In this letter, he’s torn because he loves his life how it is now, but wishes that things could’ve gone smoother to get him to where he is today.

So I started thinking. If I, at my age right now, could write a letter to my 18, almost 19 year old self, during this anniversary of my mom’s death, what would I say to me? What advice would I give the devastated girl who was just told that her mom wasn’t really there anymore? The girl that would end up on the brink of depression and end up being a hypochondriac for years? So that’s what I’m going to do with this post today. I’m going to write 18 year old Rachel a letter. So…here goes nothing.

 

Dear Rachel (age 18),

I know exactly what you are going through at this moment. You don’t know what to think or do and believe me, this is going to go down as one of the worst days of your life. And tomorrow won’t be any better. In fact, it will be worse. Because tomorrow, you are saying goodbye to the woman that not only gave birth to you, but has been your biggest fan since day one. Tomorrow, you will say goodbye to mom. I know, because I’ve been there. You see, I’m you…just 11 years in the future. And yes, that means that you do survive this, somehow.

A piece of you died the second you heard that your mom wasn’t going to make it, I know that. And guess what, that hole will always linger. Even now, there are days when you can’t stop thinking about her and how unfair it is that she is gone. She was only 63, way too young to die. She had so much life ahead of her, and you have so many things in your life to look forward to, that she is going to miss. There will be nights you will just bawl because something big is happening and all you want is to have her here to share the experience with. You’re going to be angry at times, wondering why she had to go.

I know you’re hurting. Even this far removed, the emotions of July 17th, 2006 are very fresh in my memory. It’s frustrating because a part of you wanted to stay optimistic and hope that she could pull through, but the realist part of you knew it was going to be a long shot. Especially when she started having set backs. Plus, you’re so young, you didn’t want to even imagine this as a possibility. I know. I get it. And when they call the house tomorrow to let you, Matt, Mike and Amber know that she has passed, you’ll be inconsolable. Thankfully Matt is next to you to answer the phone and to give you a hug to try to comfort you.

And you have some amazing friends that are willing to drop everything they are doing to come and console you too. Even though most of them will drift apart from you in the years to come, they were exactly who you needed near you at this moment in time. Lean on them. They love you and some of them are pretty upset about mom dying too. Give an extra hug to Ryan. He will need it and you in the years ahead.

I know that it may sound easy for me to tell you all this. And honestly, 11 years ago, I probably wouldn’t have wanted to hear any of this. But I wanted to write you to give you some hope, and advice, for this now uncertain future.

  1. Lean on God and his word. Pray. Pray hard. Your faith is going to help you way more than you realize. Remember that God knows what He’s doing, whether we understand it or not. And we probably won’t know why He takes mom on this side of Heaven. But also remember that your mom knew where she was heading after she died. She’s going to be up in Heaven, greeted by all the ones who have gone before, and she’ll be watching you. I have no doubt in my mind that mom watches out for all of us. She has the best seat in the house, after all.
  2. Lean on your family. They know better than anyone else what you are going through, because they’re going through it with you. Some of you will handle this better than others and that’s why you have to all stick together. Be there when someone wants to talk. Spend more time together. You will never regret it. And guess what. You and dad are going to become much closer, and you will love that. He needs you guys now more than ever.
  3. Lean on your friends. Yes, I know I said some of them won’t end up sticking around for the long haul, but some of the do. And even the ones that don’t, love you very much in this current season of your lives. It doesn’t matter that some of them won’t be close with you in the future. What matters is the here and now. You have amazing friends right now and they will take care of you.
  4. Know that this first year is going to be hard. Every first holiday without her is going to suck. There’s no other way to put it. All the memories and traditions she would partake in, they won’t be the same. It’s hard. But with every new holiday, a new normal sets in. Every holiday will get easier as times goes on, but the void will always be there. But the holidays won’t always be bittersweet. They will become happier again, I promise.
  5. Every new milestone is going to hurt more and more. Especially since you’re the youngest in the family. It will hurt when you graduate college (and thanks to dad, you will graduate college). It will hurt when you get your first teaching job. It will definitely hurt when you get married and even more so when you have your first baby. You will feel like you’ve been cheated. Even today, I feel that way. Sadly, life isn’t always fair. You’re allowed to be angry and you’re allowed to be upset and to feel cheated. Eighteen years isn’t nearly enough time with mom. But try your best to stay strong. Your family needs you to stay strong too.
  6. Know that your life is turning out really great. As I get ready to turn 30 in just over three weeks, I can safely say that things in our life haven’t always turned out the way I expected them to. But I do believe that things in our life have turned out the way they were supposed to. And just know, you are so happy with your life. At almost 30, you have a wonderful husband, and a beautiful 17 month old girl (named after mom and your husband’s mom, who also passed away). You and our siblings are still extremely close and you and dad are partners in crime. Your best friends are beyond amazing and love you like crazy. And even though mom isn’t here to witness all the amazing times, I do believe that she is watching you. She’ll see all the crazy stuff you do and she’ll probably get a kick out of it. You will always have the memories of mom and a lot of great stories to remember her by. And guess what, she wouldn’t want you upset all the time. You will fight this a little bit, almost being diagnosed with depression. As sad as tomorrow will be for you, you have such an amazing future ahead. And guess what? Mom is going to be watching from the best seat in the house.

Keep your head up. Know that mom loves you so much. And live a life to make her proud. Stay strong in your faith and know that tomorrow isn’t “good-bye” forever. It’s just a really long “see you later”.

You’re stronger than you realize. And you will get through this.

Sincerely,

Rachel (age 29)

Another Update on Dad

Another Update on Dad

I do realize it’s 2am.

I am currently at my dad’s. He had his colonoscopy today to see if they could find the cause of his low iron from his blood work.

They ended up removing two small polyps and they want him to eat more fiber. Definitely good news in the grand scheme of things. He is beyond relieved to hear that they didn’t find anything really wrong.

We are very pleased with what they found, or didn’t find in this case. He has to call in 7 days to find out the results of the biopsy on his polyps. They don’t seem concerned, so I’m not concerned.

So why am I at his house in the middle of the night? 

He has to have someone with him for the first twelve hours after his procedure. My brother that lives here with dad is at work tonight. So me and Maddie are here at dad’s until around three. Three is a time I feel safe heading home.

So will removing the polyps fix his low iron? Possibly. When I look up “reasons for low iron”, polyps is listed. Those two little polyps could have been causing his low iron, but it also could have caused his issue where his chest tightens when he over exerts himself. Only time will tell.

He will go back to his cardiologist on Wednesday to follow up on his angiogram and see if he wants to change up his medicine. If he is still having chest tightness, that will probably be the route he goes.

But for tonight (and today), we will celebrate this victory. 

Good News on Dad!!!

Good News on Dad!!!

Thank you to everyone who has prayed for my dad in the last few weeks! You are all amazing and I appreciate all of you.

We got to the hospital this morning, and after a little bit of a delay (Doctor had an emergency and that delayed the guy ahead of dad), Dad’s angiogram started at 2:30pm and he was done before 3pm. (Side note: we had to be here at 9:45am and his angiogram was supposed to start at 11:45am, just for a point of reference.)

Once we got to see him after his procedure, we were told the good news. His heart looks great. The arteries that were part of the initial by-pass are still going strong and everything else looked good. So no stents needed to be put in. Doctor Broderick did say that he thinks the problem is being caused by the two arteries behind the heart that were not touched during the by-pass. When he exerts himself, the blood rushes through the arteries and if it has issues getting through, it will try to find the path of least resistance and that’s what causes his symptoms. The only thing he mentioned that they could do is either change up his medication or up some of the dosages of the current medicine, or just leave it the same. And he left that choice up to Dad. Dad decided to just stay on the current medication and dosages for now. We go back to Broderick next month for a follow-up and we’ll see if we need to re-evaluate the medicines.

But for now, we will be grateful and thank God for watching over my dad. We are all so happy that he didn’t need any stents and he will be able to go home tonight. He has to take it easy for about a week. Limited walking for the first 24 hours, and then he can move around more and drive. He can’t lift anything over 15 pounds for about a week, but that is it.

So again, thank you all for all the prayers and well wishes. We are very blessed to have good news today.

The next step will be getting through his colonoscopy next month to find out why his iron could be low. But for today, we will celebrate this good news!

Tomorrow is the Day

Tomorrow is the Day

Sorry for the lack of updates, but this last week has been a bit hectic.

Tomorrow is the day (Monday the 22nd) and I will be taking my dad down to Christ Hospital for his angiogram. That’s been interesting too.

He had to get blood work done before last Wednesday for the cardiologist, so he went to the hospital that our family doctor is out of and had them run the blood work. He ended up getting a call from his family doctor’s office, saying that it showed that he had low iron and that his doctor wanted to have a conference with him. I told him I would go with him to that appointment too, but he said he could do it.

He goes and Doctor Weber tells him that he believes Dad had a “leak” somewhere. In other words, my dad has an internal bleed somewhere. So Weber referred my dad to get a colonoscopy to find out what the problem is. So he scheduled a meeting with that doctor fo June 6th. But with that problem, I wanted to make sure he shouldn’t do the colonoscopy before the angiogram. In the end, I guess the cardiologist decided the angiogram needed to go first.

So that brings us back to tomorrow (22nd). I will be driving dad down tomorrow morning and will wait for them to perform the angiogram along with one of my brothers and his wife, who is a nurse. The angiogram is at 11:45am. If they find that he needs a stent, he will stay overnight and someone has to stay with him. I will be staying at the hospital most of tomorrow until my sister gets there and she will take over tomorrow night and into the next morning. He has to have someone with him for 24 hours straight. I will then come back the following morning to relieve Laurie for a couple hours so she can get to an appointment she has. 

But this is all just a maybe. If they don’t find anything, no stent and he’ll get to go home tomorrow. Obviously that’s the main hope. I hope there is nothing wrong at all. But I’m also realistic. It’s very possible he has some sort of blockage that needs to be addressed.

So pray for him. Pray that he will stay strong through the angiogram and any subsequent procedure that may follow. Pray that he keeps his spirit up and goes into it calm and ready. Pray that the cardiologist and his team can distinctly tell if there is an issue or not and pray that they have the wisdom and knowledge to fix any problem they find. Pray for us kids, that we stay strong and help dad out in any way we can. Pray that I can stay strong while we wait for his procedure to end. Pray that nothing is wrong or that it is an easy fix.

When he went to his family doctor about his iron problem, he said yet again that he wants to live long enough to see Maddie graduate high school, if not college. Breaks my heart to think that he may not see it. She loves him so much and he loves her too. 

But like I’ve said to him this week, let’s see what they say after the procedure. I’m hoping for the best, preparing for the worst, and giving it to God. Sometimes that’s all you can do.

I’ll update tomorrow as we find out what is going on! Thank you everyone who has and will be praying for my daddy. I love all of you and appreciate you more than you know.

Update on my Dad and Prayer Requests

Update on my Dad and Prayer Requests

So we went to my dad’s cardiologist appointment this morning. I absolutely love his cardiologist. Doctor Broderick is very calming and is overall a nice guy. 

Dad explained to him what his symptoms were and even told him that they were the same feeling as the ones he had before he had his by-pass five years ago. Doctor Broderick asked his quite a few questions, like the frequency of the symptoms and how long they would last when he would feel them. Dad honestly answered and told him that it didn’t happen all the time, just about every other to every third time. And when he would get them, they would end almost as quickly as it began.

Based on his symptoms, Broderick said that my dad is having some angina. I kinda thought he would say that, especially after I saw a sign in the waiting room that talked about angina and it sounded very similar to what dad had. For the short term, they prescribed dad a medicine called Isosorbide Mononitrate. It is similar to nitro pills but he will take this every morning and it will help him feel a little more comfortable. 

But Broderick also suggested that he have an angiogram done. He believes that there is some sort of blockage in there, but he’s not sure how severe it is. The angiogram will help him figure out what path to go next. If it’s not too bad, they can probably just put in a few stents and he’ll be okay. Obviously that is what the best option is, aside from them finding nothing wrong. But it’s also very possible that he could end up with another by-pass. We hope that’s not the case, but the possibility is there.

So we’ll see where the 22nd leads us. If he ends up getting a stent, he’ll stay overnight at the hospital and come home the next day, the 23rd.

So pray for my dad. I know he’s nervous. He keeps saying that he hopes they find nothing wrong. It’s possible, but not horribly likely. Pray for his cardiologist, that he finds what is causing dad’s problem and can fix it easily. Pray for a quick recovery from whatever they decide to do. Pray for us siblings and the rest of his family, that we can stay strong for dad and help him get through this bump in the road. 

He told me again today that he just wants to be around to see Maddie grow up. Breaks my heart to hear him sound like that. Pray that he can get through this easily and continue to watch his baby granddaughter get bigger. 

And thank you to everyone who prayed for him today. I feel like it went very well and I can only pray that the rest of this goes just as smoothly. I’ll continue to keep all of you updated as well!

A Story About my Dad and a Request

A Story About my Dad and a Request

Tonight I’m going to start out with a story and then end with a prayer request for tomorrow.

My story is about my wonderful dad.

Back in 2012, unknown to all of us siblings, my dad started to have signs and symptoms of an underlying heart problem. These symptoms, namely his chest tightening up when he overexerted himself, went on for about six months.

And then on August 20th, 2012, I received the scariest phone call from my dad.

My husband and I had literally just pulled onto our road from an evening out together bowling. He had wanted to play one more game, but I was playing so terribly and I’m a sore loser, so I wanted to go home. Little did I know what the rest of my night would hold.

We pulled onto our road and my phone rang. It was my dad. Honestly, I was thrown off because it was pretty late for him to be calling me. I assumed he was going to tell me something about my aunt, his sister, who was in bad health. So what he ended up saying to me nearly killed me.

He said “I need you to come and drive me to the hospital. My chest is feeling tight and usually it goes away but tonight it’s not going away.”

My heart stopped.

We stopped by the house long enough for me to get my car and me and my husband took off towards my dad’s. My sister called me as I was about to pull onto his road. I remember her telling me, “Rachel, don’t mess around. If he looks bad, call 911.”

We pulled in his driveway and I raced up to the door, where he greeted me.

Instead of having him get into my car, I asked, “Dad, do you think I should call an ambulance?”

He gave me a small, nervous smile and said, “Yeah.”

I called for the ambulance and waited until they came and got my dad. I explained to them his symptoms and that heart problems run in his family. The man who drove the ambulance knew my dad and he promised me that he would be alright, that they were just gonna check him out up at the hospital.

After the ambulance left, we did too and made our way to the hospital, which was about 20 minutes away. All of my siblings met us up there and we were given the news.

Just as my mom had six years before, my dad had a heart attack. The hospital here in Clinton County didn’t have the means to take care of him, so they planned on air caring him to Christ Hospital in Cincinnati, just like my mom.

We were allowed to see him before they put him in the helicopter. Weirdly enough, he seemed normal. They were asking him questions and he was answering them like nothing was wrong. We were so shocked that he seemed okay, but wasn’t.

We left to head down to Christ, which was about an hour drive. When we got there, we waited until they got him check in and settled. They ran some tests on him and then brought all of us in his hospital room to give us the diagnosis.

He did have a heart attack. He had some sort of heart disease. And eventually, they wanted to do open heart surgery to clean out his arteries. They didn’t want to do it too soon because he had a bunch of blood thinner in his system. Once we heard that, we all decided to go home and rest, and then come back to see him in the morning.

But a God thing happened. My brother and his wife needed help with their car’s tires and called me and my husband to help. They were in a questionable part of town and we wanted to get them out of there as soon as possible. While we were there, my oldest niece called me. Mind you, it’s about 2:30am on the 21st at this point. She informed me, “They decided that the blockage is so severe in his main artery, 90% blockage, that they want to do surgery first thing in the morning. So if you want to see him before surgery, you need to be here at 6am.”

My sister-in-law happens to be a nurse at Christ Hospital. So we followed her and my brother back to the hospital and she got us a hospital room to share for the next few hours. I remember not getting any sleep in those hours.

We returned to my dad’s room hours later and he looked nervous. I could tell. We had gone through all we did with mom, it was hard to not compare his story with hers.

His triple by-pass took about five hours, but he got through it fine. The actual heart attack caused no damage to his heart, which was a huge blessing. He would have gone home sooner than he did, but his stomach gave him problems. Totally not relevant right now.

So that’s my dad’s story. I’ll never forget calling the ambulance for him. So many things about those weeks ahead, things he doesn’t remember and I’ve had to remind him about. He doesn’t remember much, and I’m glad.

But now, five years later, he is starting to have similar signs and symptoms as he did in 2012. He informed my sister initially, who then told me. When he mows his grass, he’ll feel that tightness in his chest again. He also feels it from time to time when he walks too fast, just as he did those years ago. Unlike last time, where he didn’t tell us until it was too late, he told us.

We talked him into getting an appointment with his cardiologist, which is for tomorrow (May 10th). Maddie and I will be taking him down to Christ Hospital for his 11:45 appointment tomorrow. I know he’s nervous, as am I and I know all of our family is nervous. So this is where my prayer request comes in.

Pray for my dad. Pray that they can figure out what is causing this problem and that they can easily fix it. Or pray that it’s nothing serious and nothing we need to worry about. I don’t think that is the case, and I’d honestly rather them find something than to say they didn’t find anything wrong, only to have something bad happen in the future. Pray for all of us. Pray for wisdom for the doctor. Pray for my nerves as I sit with him and listen to what the doctor thinks.

A month or so ago, my dad told me that he wants to be here (on earth) when Maddie graduates high school. She’s only one year old. He’s 75, going on 76 in September. He’s got quite a few more years to go. So pray that we can get him back to 100% and that he can be here in 2034 when she will graduate high school.

How You’ve Changed Me

How You’ve Changed Me

In 19 days, I will have a one year old.

My brain has a hard time grasping that fact. How can my little girl be turning into a toddler?? Wasn’t she just born yesterday?? How can this be happening??

My heart is torn between wanting her to stay little forever and being excited to see what God has in store for her as she gets older. She’s such a blessing to me and Kenneth. I don’t know what I’d do without her.

She may have changed a lot in the last year, but she has also changed me in so many ways.

I no longer get angry when I’m running late and don’t make it to where I need to be on time. As a parent, I feel like that is just bound to happen and it will probably get worse as she gets older. I have learned to just try my best to get us there on time and embrace our fate of inevitability being 5-15 minutes late.

I’m more patient. I may not want to read “Brown Bear, Brown Bear, What Do You See?” over and over and over and over (you get the picture). But if my baby girl hands me the book and looks at me with her big blue eyes, I’m stuck in a chair reading that book for as long as she wants me to. She’s only this age for a short time. I want her to eventually remember that mommy put aside housework or her cell phone and made her the number one priority.

I never knew my heart could be so full, especially when she smiles or busts out laughing. Children have this way of just making your heart grow 1,000 times it’s regular size. They say you never know you could love someone so much until you hold your baby in your arms for the first time. They are absolutely right.

I’ve never prayed as much as I do now. I pray for knowledge. I pray for safety and health for her and for us. I pray that God is guiding me in a way so I can be the best mommy for Maddie. I pray I’m making the right decisions for her. I pray that she gets saved at an early age and becomes active in church. I pray that she will have a good relationship with God and that she will stay strong in her faith as she gets older. I pray that as her parents, we set a Godly example that she can one day follow. I pray that she is as happy as she gets older as she is today.

So as we start to countdown to her first birthday, I look back at who I was before Maddie and I don’t miss it. I have enjoyed being her mommy so much and I thank God every day that he blessed me with the privilege of raising her. This first year has been fun, but I’m looking forward to seeing how God uses us and her in the years to come.

Lessons Learned from “It’s a Wonderful Life”

Lessons Learned from “It’s a Wonderful Life”

Merry Christmas to everyone!! I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday! We were very blessed and had a fantastic Christmas!

As I sit here in my bed, my 10 month old baby beside me, waiting for her to wake up, my mind starts to wander. Last night, as I went to bed, I turned on my favorite Christmas movie, “It’s a Wonderful Life”. It’s safe to say that I get around to watching it at least once during the holidays, sometimes more. As I watched it, I started to think about all the great themes and lessons that can be learned from watching the movie. Here’s some that I came up with.

  1. Prayer works! As soon as the movie starts, you hear random characters praying for the main character, George Bailey. His wife, Mary had called everyone they knew and asked for prayer for her husband, who she knew was in some kind of trouble. All the prayers lead to Clarence, an angel from Heaven attempting to gain his wings, to come to earth to save George from killing himself and to show him that he is an important person to a lot of people in the world.
  2. Even though prayer does work, sometimes we don’t get the answer we’re wanting. At one point in the movie, George is at the bar and just about to lose his mind. As he sits there, he prays that God show him the way, and instead of getting a positive answer, he ends up getting punched in the face by the husband of one of George’s kids’ teachers. He had no hope to begin with and when that happened, it drove him to go to the bridge where he contemplates killing himself and where he meets Clarence.
  3. Sometimes God lets you go through a deep valley before you see something positive happen. George was about as far gone as a person could be. God knew what was going to happen to the money that Uncle Billy misplaced, but He also knew that George needed to see what life would have been like without him to appreciate what he did have. So God let all the bad things happen to George so he could learn from all of it and appreciate all he did have.
  4. Being too nice and selfless can pay off in the end. At least it did for George. That poor guy couldn’t catch a break! He lost his hearing in one ear when he got sick after saving his younger brother, who had fallen through an icy pond. He kept his mouth shut about the druggist who accidentally put poison in the capsules instead of the medicine. He stayed in town instead of going to college when his dad died so he could run the Building and Loan. The list goes on and on. But when he needed people there to help him, they came from all over and gave willing. They loved George and knew that he would help them if they needed it.
  5. Each man’s life touches so many other lives, more than anyone realizes. When George got to see what life would have been like if he had never been born, he got a huge shock. His brother, the same one he saved from the icy water, died in this reality because George wasn’t there to save him. The druggist would have been thrown in jail for accidenly putting the poison in the capsules. His wife would have ended up an old maid. The list is endless. Seeing this alternate reality, George realized how important he really was.

What’s your favorite Christmas movie? What’s your opinion of “It’s a Wonderful Life”? Comment and let me know!! 

We’re Not Who We Once Were.

We’re Not Who We Once Were.

I saw a picture tonight on Facebook that really hit home to me. It was just a picture that said, “I’m definitely not the same person I was when year started”. This statement couldn’t be more true in mine and Ken’s lives, more mine than his. 

From the moment back in June of 2015 when I found out that I was pregnant with Maddie, my life changed. I had another person to think about. And even though she wasn’t in my arms yet, I knew that she would be soon enough.

The picture in this post was from May of 2015. I wasn’t pregnant yet and I was the matron of honor at my niece’s wedding. I thought a lot about myself and made decisions based on what I wanted. Ken and I made plans based on what we wanted to do. The day after this wedding, we went to a concert. The next month, we went to a WWE event. No worry in the world.

Fast forward to February 18th, 2016. Suddenly it stopped being about me and Ken. Suddenly, all my decisions dealt with Maddie. Any plans I made, I had to think about her. If we decided to go out, she went too. We’ve only had people babysit her twice since being born, otherwise she has been with us. My best friend got married back in October. Guess what? Maddie was with us. We were both in the wedding! I was the matron of honor. We had a full weekend of activities planned for the wedding. Maddie was there for all of it.

Her needs and wants have become my needs and wants. I live for her. I want her to be happy and as long as she’s happy, so am I. That’s how it should be! Before she was born, I would hop in the shower whenever I wanted, once a day, and take my time. Now, I either 1) Wait until she’s napping, 2) Wait until Ken gets home from work, or 3) Don’t shower that day. It’s simple. I would do anything for her, even if that means I go without.

She’s my world. And I would never go back to who I was before. Who I am now is who God meant for me to be, and I know how blessed I am.

16 Bible Verses for an Anxious Heart

16 Bible Verses for an Anxious Heart

The other day, I shared the story of my mom passing away. I shared it for several reasons. I want people that read my blog to know me and know why I am the person I am today. I also hope that by acknowledging that it happened and talking about my struggle with it, that it may give hope to someone else that may be dealing with something similar. Because of those reasons, I felt that I needed to write this blog and talk about what happened after losing my mom.

Not long after I had lost my mom, I started having trouble catching my breath every now and then. This concerned me a lot because that was the only symptom that my mom had of her heart attack initially. Eventually I decided that I really needed to go to the doctor and get checked out. What he diagnosed me with, I’ll admit, I didn’t expect.

He informed me that I was on the brink of having depression and anxiety. My one symptom was actually a symptom of anxiety and nothing to do with my heart. Instead of putting me on medication, which he really didn’t think I needed, he told me I should start exercising at least 3 times a week for 30 minutes. I was happy enough that it wasn’t anything heart related, but I did start working out a little bit more, which helped me get better.

Another thing that always helps me when I’m a bit anxious is reading God’s word and reading what He has to say about fear and anxiety. So today, I’m going to post 16 verses that I personally love dealing with the topic of fear and anxiety.

  1. 1 Peter 5:7 – Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.
  2. Isaiah 41:10 – Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
  3. Philippians 4:6-7 – Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passerby all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
  4. John 14:27 – Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
  5. 2 Timothy 1:7 – For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
  6. Psalm 27:1 – The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
  7. Psalm 23:4 – Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
  8. Joshua 1:9 – Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.
  9. Psalm 118:6-7 – The Lord is on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me? The Lord taketh my part with them that help me: therefore shall I see my desire upon them that hate me.
  10. Mark 4:39-40 – And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. And he said unto them, Why are he so fearful? how is it that ye have no faith?
  11. Psalm 34:4 – I sought the Lord, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.
  12. Deuteronomy 3:22 – Ye shall not fear them: for the Lord your God he shall fight for you.
  13. Romans 8:38-39 – For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
  14. Zephaniah 3:17 – The Lord thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will rest in his love, he will joy over thee with singing.
  15. John 16:33 – These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.
  16. Psalm 73:26 – My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.

Those are just a few of many great verses to help with anxiety! Did I forget your favorite?? Comment and tell me what your favorite verse is!